♥ c.i.n.t.a.p.u.r.p.l.e ♥

:: it lost! ::

2012-02-13T01:19:00.000+08:00

July 2011, i used to gave this gadget to you as i bought mine with the same model as well.and it was the first smartphone we have together,right? :) but now yours has gone.for the third time,i think.hurmm..nothing to be regretted,as it's already written as a fate.the first time you lost it when we went to Alamanda and you left it in secret recipe after we have heart-to-heart conversation.and we already at home when you realized the phone is gone (i was so mad at that time :D ).thank God,the manager kept the phone when we get back to the shop.second time,it was during your futsal training.you left it on the table at the canteen.and your friend gave it to me.again,your phone 'terselamat'.now the third time,the time which your phone couldn't 'diselamatkan' anymore.you left it in Jakarta,when you have a trip with your futsal team.yup,i'm really disappointed.i really do,my dear.but i never mad at you cause i know how careless you are with your stuff.that's why i always be by ur side a.k.a ur personal asst. to remind you about everything :D i just hope that after this,you'll be more careful of your belongings especially for my gifts :)

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: sisters ::

2012-02-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

i think we should own this,right? :)

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: 123 go! ::

2012-02-06T16:20:00.001+08:00

yeah!sekali lagi berbicara tentang twitterrrrrrr! :D

kali ni mau stress tentang people yang 'difollow' oleh rara.purple

(highlighted in purple square) angkanya sangat cantik! 123 he3 :)

looking forward to make it 12345 i guess?erk~ *perlu ke*

ok,itu sajee.*sumpah xde idea nak tulis ape*

mungkin kerana terlalu teruja si adik akan pulang dr jakarta malam ini

yeeehaaaa! ^_^

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: a thousand years ::

2012-02-06T04:13:00.000+08:00

i have died everyday waiting for you...

darling don't be afraid i have loved you...

for a thousand years...

i love you for a thousand more...

and all long i believed i would find you...

time has brought your heart to me...

i have loved you for a thousand years...

i love you for a thousand more...

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: just bear in your mind ::

2012-02-06T04:01:00.000+08:00

just bear in your mind,my dear...

i would be friend with everyone who sincere to be friend with me...

and please,don't ever make me your enemy...

because i don't want you to be mine as well...

i'm really appreciate if you could understand this small request...

bunch of thanks...

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: this is not awesome! ::

2012-02-05T23:47:00.003+08:00

those 444 tweets i have currently are totally not awesome...

(baru ade 444 da kecoh kan?ha3 :D )

pointnye ni je -> org cina ckp,'ini nombo talak 0ng' heee :D

sila2 lah follow my twitter...

dont worry,aku sememangnya tidak meratah manusia.ha3 :D

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: is it my fault? ::

2012-02-05T22:53:00.001+08:00

did i say something wrong?i'm really sorry if i did...

i'm just saying 'dia MUNGKIN kepunyaanku',that's it...

and i did say 'mengalah dengan adik2 kecil itu kdg2 sgt indah'...

and i really mean it,my dear...

i didn't ask u to back-off...

u just make me feel guilty more and more...

oh!u really make me confused...

it's just a writing my dear.a WRITING from my sincere heart...

i speak and write frankly without prejudice...

remember my Welcome notes up there?

and u know what,i really dont know how to pretend...

could u teach me how to be one?

kenapa setiap tulisanku sering disalah tafsir?aku benar2 buntu.mungkinkah aku harus menggunakan kata2 yg lebih enak dibaca?hanya untuk tidak melukakan hati sesiapa saja yg membacanya?ya,mungkin aku harus... +_+

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: salam maulidur rasul ::

2012-02-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

Dari hadith: [An-Nasa'iy/ 1292, sahih]

اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

Allahumma salli `ala muhammadin wa`ala ali muhammad

Ya Tuhan kami, selawatkanlah ke atas Nabi Muhammad dan ke atas keluarganya.

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: kek batik rm8??erk!! ::

2012-02-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

kek batik ini dibeli dengan harga rm8 sebekas...

di salah sebuah kedai mkn kegemaran kami...

kedai mkn cik maya.masakannya sgt sedap...

belajar dr mama barangkali...

(she used to be my maid when i was child)...

oh!tapi kek batik ni sgt sedap.lembut...

adik amek 2 bekas utk dibawa ke indonesia...

utk bekalan,katanya... :)

mungkin kek ni abes sblm smpi jakarta... :D

kami mmg sanggup abiskan duit utk mknn...

sangat membazir,kn?buat sndri lg jimat.heeee :D

❤ cintapurple ❤

:: segera pulang ::

2012-02-04T20:12:00.001+08:00

❤ hanya stich yg menemani ❤

semua pesanmu kuingat...

semoga kamu selamat sentiasa disana...

sila pulang segera...

mau melepaskan rindu segala... :)

❤,

:: carta hati ::

2012-02-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

♬ kau terkini duduk di carta hati ♬

dahulu...satu ketika dahulu...

aku pernah menyukai lagu ini..dahulu...

sebelum kalian mula menyukainya...

mungkin kerana baris2 ayatnya sgt sebati dgn jiwaku...

tp semenjak kebelakangan ni...

aku mula rasa x selesa...

mungkin kerana perkara2 lama dahulu...

yg masih segar dlm kotak fikiran...

tp xpe lah..mengalah dengan adik2 kecil itu kdg2 sgt indah...

dan membuat aku tersenyum melihatnya... :)

aku cuma sering berharap...

kalian bahagia dengan carta hati masing2...

walaupun dia mungkin adalah kepunyaanku... :)

❤,

:: rahsia hati ::

2012-01-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

kebosanan arini duduk di rumah tanpa hala tuju.lepas solat asar,bergegas ke UM tgk game adik.game terakhir utk ptg tu.adik menang seperti biasa.then bwk si kecil ini makan di s.alam.seperti biasa,menu yg biasa,ayam penyet.waktu hantar adik ke kolej nye,tiba2 adik menangis.tidak sabar mau pulang,katanya.pabila di tanya ada masalah ke dgn teammates,katanya ok saje.seperti ade sesuatu yg dirahsiakannya.sepanjang penglibatannya dlm game ipt ni,acapkali aku dengar keluhan adik yg x berape selesa tinggal di situ.mungkin kerana keadaan batuknya yg membuatkan adik xselesa di sana.kasihan,rasa sayu lihat adik teresak begitu.puas memujuk smpai adik terlelap sekejap di bahu untuk beberapa saat.penat menangis,mungkin.tambahan,tangannya juga dlm keadaan x berapa baik.wrist injury.makin bimbang dgn keadaan si kecil ni.nampak ceria,tp byk yg terbuku dlm hatinya.rahsia hatinya,tiada siapa tahu.semoga kamu tabah,dik! :)

p/s: sabar ye dik,tggl esok je lg.then akk bwk adik balik.rabu,kite pegi check-up lg ye.. :)

❤,

:: G.E.M.O.K ::

2012-01-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

arini masuk opis agak lambat.and thank God,bos cuti arini.hu3 :) didn't have much works to do.just some pending workflows to be completed.oleh kerana agak bosan di opis,ecah (teammate) dok menghantar lawak2 sengal di email.rasa mau pecah perot baca lawak2 gaban tu. :D kekurangan workflows membuatkan kami agak mengantuk di opis.maka nye,kami pulang tepat pada waktunye arini (4.45pm).heeee :D

lepas keje,bergegas ke UM utk tgk game netball IPT.sambil tu deal dgn fana utk amek kad kawennye di sana juge.oh!fana tu my netball teammate waktu kat uia dulu.she's married.and she's going to have her wedding reception utk sebelah husband nye pulak february ni.lama x jumpa,jd nye begitu banyak isu yg dibincangkan bersama.really had a great time with u,fren! :)

games adik seperti dijangkakan,memang kesemuanya menang utk arini.esok ade lg game,1 waktu pagi,1 lagi waktu petang.aku bercadang utk datang petang (atas suggestion adik).td sempat juge tgk game uia.oh!ade coach baru,Asma' spa.byk juge muke2 baru dlm team uia.and they did very well just now.proud with u juniors! :) waktu bersalaman dgn manager+players uia,perkataan yg sering didengar, "akak,nape da gemok?"..."akak,nape da bulat nih?"..."akak,babap nyeee"...ha3.sadisss dengar ayat2 tu semua.nak buat macam mane,manusia yg pernah sangat2 active waktu di uinv dulu,suda x ber'sport' lg.inilah hasilnye.sangat ketara.hu3. :D sampai manager uia tegur mcm ni, "kau ni ira,gemoknye.ni belum kawen ni.da kawen nnt mcm mane la.da ade double chin da.diet la sikit.." ha3.. :D utk pengetahuan,ak gemok bkn sbb xjage mkn.tp sbb da xde exercise.that is the main point.jadi,mungkin lepas ni boleh mula mengerapkan diri utk bersenam.hu3.susah kan manusia ni.ble kite kurus,die tny ble nk gemok.ble da gemok,bising plak soh jd kurus.senget! :D sbnrnye,ak da penat jd kurus dr kecik dulu.jd mungkin ini masanye utk ak gemok pulak.kih3 :D

p/s: org selalu comparekan aku dgn adik.tercabar sungguh.adesss! :D

p/ss: kpd adik,akan selalu menyokong kamu.dan oh!baru terasa mau tukar lagu itu.kamu da amek dulu.curiiiiikkk!hek3 :D

❤,

:: si pembersih najis ::

2012-01-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

arini masuk toilet opis.ade sisa2 najis (di toilet bowl) yg x dibersihkan oleh manusia yg begitu x b't/jawab.eeuuuuuuw!naseb baiklah sikit (hanya dua tompok sebesar kacang dal) **kacang dal??xde perumpamaan lain ke??** maka nya aku dengan bersusah payah telah memancut air dengan kadar tekanan yg sangat tinggi sehingga berjaya menghilangkan dua tompok kotoran degil itu.seriously,tgn sangat2 lenguh dok memancut air.at least ade gak pahala membuat kebajikan untuk arini.heeee :D

oh!arini dinner di ayam penyet nusantara bersama adik.hidangannya lebih baik dr ayam2 penyet yg lain.boleh bg 5stars.hek3 :D yg pntg,kami kekenyangan.hu3.sebelum balik,singgah dominos tapau pizza utk rumet2 adik.kesian mereka kelaparan bertemankan meggi sajee.mkn kenyang2 ye.heeee :D

**rase nyesal tolak offer adik utk amek sikit pizza tu.skg,terliur** bahahaha :D

❤,

:: kopi ais sedap! ::

2012-01-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

hari pertama kerja after long weekends for CNY...

sedikit lengang keadaan di opis...

memandangkan company itu dimonopoli oleh kaum cha ya nun alif...

semuanya masih lg enak bercuti barangkali... :)

dgn baik hatinya,bos belanja kami Ipoh White Coffee (Ice) di ptg hari...

minuman yg dihantar terus ke pintu opis...

cup nya agak besar berbanding cup biasa...

agak 'mau muntah' menelan kopi sebanyak itu... :D

terima kasih,bos! :)

batuk si adik semakin teruk...

bergegas ke sana untuk dibawa ke klinik...

tp memandangkan ubat yg baru diambil ptg td baru saja dijamah...

maka plan ditukar untuk keluar dinner mengisi perut...

wong solo menjadi pilihan terakhir setelah semua kedai yg dikunjungi tutup segala...

mungkin mereka juga mennyambut CNY beriya2... :D

p/s: semoga cpt sembuh dan semoga semuanya baik2 sajeeee :)

❤,

:: ku mohon ::

2012-01-24T18:22:00.001+08:00

oh God...i'm give up!

seriously,i am giving up...

aku x mampu bertahan sendirian...

berikan aku kekuatan...

untuk menempuh segala dugaan...

dan hadapi semuanya dengan tenang...

semoga aku kuat untuk hidup seperti sediakala...

tanpa rasa curiga...

tanpa rasa kecewa...

ku mohon padaMu...

❤,

:: please... ::

2012-01-22T00:16:00.000+08:00

if you keep hiding...

i will keep hurting...

so please, reveal it...

that is more than enough...

❤,

:: won't put any hope ::

2012-01-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

last tuesday i've received something that unexpected and it really hurts me inside. after all hard work i gave, i just feel so disappointed. it really knock me down. but as usual, the existence of people around me really make me Super Strong. i took 1day to recover, after a terrible tears. :D

today, my superior say some words to me (heart to heart conversation) just to make me comfy. and i just accept his words with a big smile though i know none of 'em would make me feel better. but i believe, if u be patient and work smart for a great achievement, He will help you through it. so i decided not to put any hope on it. just do good deeds and avoid wrong one.

goodluck rara!

❤,

:: make it Secret! :D ::

2012-01-15T10:56:00.001+08:00

oh!it looks so delicious! :D

sharing is caring! :)

pertama kali kami menjamah makanan yg 'light2' sahaja...

erkkk!'light' kah?hampir 5 menu kesemuanya,mungkin.heee :D

dan segalanya dikongsi bersama... :)

spring roll,wontons,tomyum,spaghetti,tiramisu...

eh!sudah lama x menikmati kamu,wahai tiramisu!

sungguh enak sekali! :)

mungkin akan selalu menikmati kamu selepas ini... :D

❤,

:: milo! :D ::

2012-01-15T10:42:00.001+08:00

a milo everyday...

will make you happy all day! :D

❤,

:: kesukaannya ::

2012-01-15T02:54:00.003+08:00

dia mula menyukai kartun ini sewaktu di bangku sekolah...

dia mempunyai senior yang juga sama2 meminati si 'biru' ini...

has been inspired by the senior,perhaps...

sehingga kini,walaupun sudah mencecah umur dewasa...

dia masih setia meminati makhluk kecil ini...

tampak 'nakal' seperti dirinya,barangkali... :D

sudah menjadi kebiasaan dalam hidupnya...

memberikan barang kesukaannya kepada teman2 terdekat...

yang dekat dihatinya dan dekat dimindanya...

kamu pernah menerima 'si nakal' ini juga,kan?

maka hargailah pemberiannya...

kerana kamu sudah tergolong sebagai teman terdekatnya... :)

p/s: trust me,i never get this 'naughty friend' in my life.but don't get me wrong,cause i believe different people have different treat.and i'm grateful for everything that i used to get all this while cause they are precious and worthy seperti dirinya juga.dan oh ya!i've got the biggest naughty stitch here,iaitu dia! :)

❤,

:: oh!it was great! :D ::

2012-01-08T21:50:00.002+08:00

adik yang semakin kurus

kakaknya pula semakin gemok!

eh,botol susu! :D

sisters! ❤

having such a great day together after two days i've been away to Genting for company's treasure hunt.sedikit penat di atas sana as i play a role as the organizer.tak sempat grab ape2 untuk kamu dari atas sana.ampun ya!tapi sangat lega dapat bawa kamu bersiar2 mengisi masa lapang sambil mengisi perut kamu yg semakin kurus itu.i am so jealous,seriously! :D

btw,botol susu tu actually botol air.si adik mmg sgt suke dgn botol susu.heee :D
oh ya!jgn lupa temujanji kita esok ya! :D

❤,

:: mengelilingi dunia ::

2012-01-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

kau ada dikala ku suka

dikala ku duka

setiap tangisan dan juga ketawa

kau ada dikala ku perlu

setia menemaniku

pegang erat tanganku bila aku jatuh

it's been so long since our last vacation

terasa mau berjalan2 mengelilingi dunia

yuk,dik! :D

❤,

:: turn on happy mode! :) ::

2012-01-05T22:15:00.001+08:00

hi!i'm back!with new heart,new life :)

kembali tenang dan aman seperti sediakala

some mistakes been done these few days

and i learnt so much from 'em

i seek your kind forgiveness for those mistakes

faktor umur membuatkan ku semakin mudah tersentuh

dengan azam baru dan impian baru

i'm trying to be more positive! :)

kepada kamu,

you are my precious buddy! :)

semoga kamu tidak pernah jemu berada dekat denganku

and i will always be with you,insyaAllah

.
.

kepada teman baru kamu,

maaf kerana terlalu cemburu dengan kehadiranmu

i never hate you.i just too worry.sorry for that.

just be friend with me.and i'll appreciate more the value of friendship :)

❤,

:: rest in peace ::

2012-01-03T04:10:00.000+08:00

akan berhenti dari ruang penulisan...

buat seketika...

mungkin sehingga semuanya kembali pulih...

dan kembali tenang seperti sediakala...

❤,

:: mungkinkah aku mengganggu? ::

2012-01-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

i read some of ur tweets...

dia menunggu kamu seharian...

menunggu message2 dari kamu...

bercadang utk makan bersama kamu...

tapi aku telah mengambil segala masa itu...

mungkinkah aku mengganggu kamu berdua?

atau mungkin...

aku harus memberi ruang...

kepada kamu2 sekalian...

utk mempunyai masa2 terindah bersama...

tanpa aku disisi...

ya,mungkin ak harus...

❤,

:: cincin buatan cinta ::

2012-01-03T01:11:00.001+08:00

u gave me this 'hand made' ring...

do u still remember?

i just love it so much! =)

♬ yang terpahit jua termanis...

segalanya bagiku terindah...

kuingati buat selama-lamanya ♬

❤,

:: coffee & chocolate ::

2012-01-03T01:05:00.002+08:00

coffee and chocolate are meant to be together...

and i hope u have the same idea...

❤,

:: it's 2012...dan aku masih disini... ::

2012-01-02T19:33:00.000+08:00

it's already the second day of 2012...

tahun baru yang aku sendiri x tahu kemana arah tujunya...

dan aku masih disini..in your room...

hoping that something miracle will come...

aku berharap aku mampu mngubah segala2 nya...

di tahun yang baru ini...

mungkin juga aku mampu menjadikannya milik aku...

aku cuma perlu usaha, usaha, dan teruskan berusaha...

untuk melihat kembali senyumanmu...

❤,

:: away ::

2011-12-31T08:01:00.000+08:00

i will be away..

buat seketika..

harap kamu baik2 saja disana..

with ❤,

:: masa lalu ::

2011-12-31T07:40:00.000+08:00

aku hanya impikan kita kembali seperti masa lalu..

that's my biggest wish..

and that's the only thing i ask from Him everyday..

❤,

:: 30122011 = shit! ::

2011-12-31T00:57:00.000+08:00

30122011..

the worst day ever in my life..

betapa bodohnya aku..

membuat temujanji begitu..

dan betapa bodohnya aku..

membuat kejutan bodoh itu..

maafkan aku..

+_+

❤ ,

:: mungkin... ::

2011-12-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

mungkin...

si carta hati kamu adalah dia...

bukan lagi aku...

dan...

aku terpaksa menerima kenyataan itu...

(+_+)

❤,

:: rindu! ::

2011-12-28T23:30:00.001+08:00

ya,aku rindukan itu!

juga dia yang memegangnya...

❤ ,

:: disaat itu lah... ::

2011-12-28T23:03:00.001+08:00

bila senyuman tak lagi diikhlaskan untukku...

bila pelukan tak lagi diperlukan dariku...

bila sayang tak lagi diinginkan melaluiku...

bila kata-kata indah tak lagi diungkapkan kepadaku...
bila lagu2 indah tak lagi ditujukan untukku...

disaat itu lah ku mula menyedari...

hati kamu sudah berbelah bagi...

dan aku mula berpatah hati...

❤,

:: kebosanan ::

2011-12-21T19:12:00.000+08:00

hari ni masuk hari ke-3 sy tidak ke opis..

block leaves yg diambil selama seminggu terasa amat sia2..

mungkin kerana tiada tempat yg mahu dituju untuk bercuti..

dan mungkin juga kerana keseorangan?hu3..

oleh kerana itu sy semakin rajin untuk "mengupdate" blog ni..ha3

tiba2 hati terasa mau pergi jauh..

jauh dari manusia dan jauh dari masalah..

membawa diri,mungkin? =)

❤,

:: 7.3.7.3 ::

2011-12-21T01:39:00.001+08:00

sangat cantik nombor di atas tu..

arini bukak blog dan sy nampak nombor2 itu di sudut statistic...

arini sy sangat gembira sebab dapat beri ape yang kamu impikan..

i hope i've done the best for you today..

and really hope that you love it..

be positive and smile rara! =)

❤,

:: jangan pernah berubah ::

2011-12-19T16:52:00.001+08:00

hati ini tak akan berhenti menyayangi...

mungkin sama seperti jam ini...

terus berdetik selagi baterinya masih bernyawa...

❤,

:: nota hati-18122011 ::

2011-12-19T02:35:00.001+08:00

alhamdulillah..i still breathing..nothing much to say this year.i didn't expect anything on my birthday.faktor umur,mungkin.semakin berusia,semakin rasa celebration itu x terlalu penting.hanya berharap i have someone to accompany on that day.thank God,adik pulang a day before.having sister's day out together.having great dinner,shopping some shirts,shoes,movie,really had good time bersama.on our way home,adik da tertido di sebelah sit driver.reaching home at 12 something.then siap2 untuk tido,adik da pun lama lelap.few minutes after that,bru je i nk lelapkan mata,she whispered: "happy birthday kakak!" oh,dia belum tdo lg rupanya.then she took out a card and a bangle,green bangle.sgt comel and she gave me a small box.ape agaknya barang dlm box tu.sangat berhati2 i bukak pembalutnye.syg,mungkin.a watch!color purple.thanks a lot my lil' sis.i know u broke as your scholarship yet to received.thanks a lot for your effort.you will get yours as well.soon,very very soon.on my big day,she's not really active.tired,maybe.she's got bunch of works to do.tests,exams,etc.i can see it in her eyes,she's not really happy.sorry if my day troubles u.but i can see your efforts and i really appreciate it.i know we've been fighting too much lately.but i just want u to know,macam mana teruk pun kite gaduh,u are my greatest sister ever.mungkin akak belum berjaya fahami hati dan perasaan adik.but i will try my best to understand.bagi akak sedikit masa,and i'll make sure you can smile like u always do before..

❤,

:: useless ::

2011-12-16T00:49:00.001+08:00

melihat kamu gembira dan bahagia di sana...

benar2 membuatkan ku rasa sangat tak berguna...

so lame...

❤,

:: i just wanna cry T_T ::

2011-12-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

i wanna cry out loud..

but nothing come out from my eyes..

it hurts, it really hurts me inside..

a person that i love the most has thrown me away..

just because of friends..

is friends the reason why we've been separated?

God, give me strength.. T_T

❤,

:: if only you know... ::

2011-12-10T07:38:00.000+08:00

u dont know what i face everyday...

u dont know how it feels for being alone...

u dont know how bad i need u by my side...

u dont know how much i miss and love u...

u dont even know my heart...

if only u know...

**u're the greatest prayer i ask from God everyday...

❤ ,

2011-11-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

" The sad moment when you find an old conversation between you and someone you don't talk to anymore."

"Stop holding on to what hurts and make room for what feels good."

it's hurt to read those words from the one that you love the most. after all the things you've done for them. after all the loves you gave to them. it's really hurt when you have to hear a "goodbye". and the most saddest thing is when you are forced to accept the precious stuff you used to give to them before, as if they don't need you anymore in their life. after all.........

Ya Allah, aku redha..

❤,

:: aidiladha kembali without him ::

2011-11-06T09:59:00.001+08:00

salam aidiladha people!

going back to perak kejap lagi. mau singgah pusara arwah papa dulu pagi nih. Ya Allah,Kau selamatkanlah perjalanan kami pergi dan pulang. Aamin..baca doa and drive safe,peeps!

❤,

:: 2.11.11 --> confirm! ::

2011-11-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah,syukran Ya Rabbi. today i got my confirmation letter. though it has been delayed for almost a month. bonus? jgn nk mengharap sgt. ade rezeki,adela. xde rezeki, kita cuba lg tahun dpn ye.hik3 =)

❤ ,

choices = fail

2011-11-01T23:18:00.001+08:00

lately keje sangat banyak. since teammate bz preparing her BIG day this month. plus, eksiden plak minah tu. sian dia. dugaan, be tough, ecah! makin hari makin lambat i balik keje. people balik at 5@6pm, but me...hurmm, kol 8 baru terhegeh2 turun lif opis.

last few days ada kakak offer keje other bank. local bank. this is the 2nd time she offered me the same position, at the same branch. near to my house. sgt dkt. the thing is, salary..jobscope..environment..those things yg buat i rase nk accept ke xnk. i used to reject the offer before this. but now she gives me time to decide. and as usual, i HATE choices. bahaha~

salary -> 400-500 less than my current salary
jobscope -> totally differs with my current jobscope. IT vs Finance. can i handle it? dont have confidence, so far. huhuhu~
environment -> mostly typical malay. my big challenge here. till the time i write this post, still dont have firm decision. need more time to think, perhaps. it's ok, take ur time dea..

❤,

2011-11-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

people do mistake and people do forgive. but why when i do mistake,nobody forgive? kadang2 rasa disappointed coz xde system "give n take" in life. kita manusia biasa. not perfect. kita hidup ni sentiasa belajar dr kesilapan. and the right thing to do is forgive people and guide 'em to the right path. give chances for 'em to give explanation. and do respect. then u will appreciate this life better.

❤,

:: umi no more ::

2011-09-25T17:04:00.001+08:00

last friday subuh2 dlm pukul 6pagi along send msg: "kite kt hospt doc nk jmp..." b'gegas bangun call n kejutkan adik yg dkt uitm waktu tu..after 5-10min, adik call back saying that: "kak, mesin da berhenti.umi da xde....." rase sgt sekejap masa berlalu. rasanya baru minggu lepas visit umi and borak2 dgn die.hurmmm, arwah papa dulu pun pergi hari jumaat. hari yang mulia, dijanjikan syurga InsyaAllah..tgk wajah umi slps dimandikan rase sgt sayu. sekurang2nya berakhir penderitaan umi selama ni. kami redha. umi dikebumikan kt tanah perkuburan Jln Kuari, Cheras. tempat yang sama arwah p.ndak dikebumikan. kesian adik. sgt manja dgn umi. juge org yg plg dekat dgn umi. hope adik tabah. InsyaAllah umi lebih tenang di sisiNya disana. yg penting adik kena kuat and selalu sedekah fatihah pada umi ble t'ingatkan dia. be tough, dear!

-alFatihah-

**umi = ibu angkat yg dah anggap mcm umi sndri. ❤

:: happy eid everyone! ::

2011-09-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

happy eid readers! =) maaf zahir batin ye.

this year sangat letih menyambut raya.coz my aunt kawen on 3rd sept.opkos, mcm biasa my place would be "dapur" as my mom kena masak utk wedding ni.sgt penat hokeyhhh.tdo kol 3pagi.haisyy~ bnd plg xbest,my family missed out the photography session.aiyarrrk! =P

luv,

:: first year without him ::

2011-08-29T06:29:00.000+08:00

this is my first year celebrating eid without my late farther.rasa sgt janggal n setiap kali dgr lagu raya,hati akn tersentuh,sebak.sepanjang ramadhan,kdg2 menangis tiba2 bila teringatkan papa.sometimes feel scared utk hadapi 1st Syawal.rse mcm xde tulang belakang keluarga.hope we'll be strong enough to face this becoming Syawal.we miss u dad!

al-fatihah.
luv,

:: sabar ::

2011-08-25T23:58:00.002+08:00

susah nak buat diri kita bersabar sentiasa

but patience is the best way to prevent yourself from anger

senyap xbermakna lari dari masalah

but sometimes silence helps you think wisely of what you have done

and that is what i hope from you

luv,

:: berehat sebentar ::

2011-07-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

oh!sudah lama x berblog
sedikit busy..berehat sebentar dr ruang penulisan
yes,u!sory..it wasn't ur fault.it's mine
faktor umur mungkin..semakin mudah terasa
halusssssss sgt hati ni.haha! =P

luv,

:: i'm not mad,i'm just disappointed ::

2011-05-26T03:10:00.001+08:00

seriously, it's really hurt when you trust people, then they did something behind you secretly. and Subhanallah, my instinct is totally right. what did i have in mind all this while is exactly what had happened. i never mad, i'm just disappointed because it has been done by the most trusted person in my life. don't worry, u always have my forgiveness but just bear in mind, what had happened today might be happened to you in the future. so just learn from your mistakes.

**moral: don't ever make promises if you're not committed enough to keep it.

:: sudah berhabuk! ::

2011-05-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

i feel like i didn't write for a year!ha3..too much things happen in my life lately..been busy with bunch of works everyday..going back at nite is normal to me now..before this, balik pukul 6.30 pun da merungut macam2..ha3..being in banking industry really make your day hectic!biasa la, xde benda senang kat dunia ni, right? =)

makin berumur ni, makin bertambah "comel" badan sy..lack of exercise maybe..always try to find some other time for jogging, going to gym, etc..but i couldn't..the only chance i have is when people call for a tournament..waktu ni je la nak bersukan puas2..really miss my sport activities in uni..netball..jogging..squasy..oh my!how to get my ideal weight back? really need to find ways by hook or by crook..otherwise, people will keep saying: "ko da kawen ek ra?" pfffftt~!! +_+

❤ cintapurple ❤

h.a.r.d

2011-02-14T17:10:00.000+08:00

:: few years ago.......... ::

"...in life we seldom find a true person.if u ever found one,hold on and never let go.value that person because it is life's irreplaceable gift.........just like Y.O.U..."

luv u forever

:: it is hard to make people believe how deep our love to them ::

:: until they gone through deeply in our heart ::

"...now you want to be free.so i'm letting you fly.cause i know in my heart.our love will never die..."

~lalalalalalala~

:: b.o.b.o.y is gone ::

2011-02-10T14:17:00.000+08:00

:: so sad to hear that b.o.b.o.y is gone.. ::
:: no more hyper-active cat in my house ::
:: manusia paling sedih ialah kakak sy sbbnye boboy da mcm ank die.hu3 ::
:: matanya kuning di saat2 akhir hayatnya ::
:: doktor ckp boboy sakit kena jangkitan v.i.r.u.s ::
:: jht virus tu kan.tamo kwn die.jht! ::

~lalalalalalala~

:: 2.0.1.1 ::

2011-01-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

:: hope to be stronger + calm in facing obstacle + dugaan hidup ::

:: aim to have a good job to survive life ::

:: try to make people happy with my existence ::

:: control eating habit yg sgt melampau ::

:: solat pd waktunye + tade qada'2 ::

:: increase daily recitation of Al-Quran ::

:: bersenam untuk tujuan kesihatan + bukan untuk slim ::

:: control shopping habit yg kadang2 xperlu sgt pon ::

:: jd a.z.i.r.a.h yg org pndg kerana kebaikannya dan bukan kerana kecantikannya (cantik ke?ha3) ::

~lalalalalalala~

:: g.o a.w.a.y,please..::

2010-12-11T19:17:00.000+08:00

...i really hate a man who already had fiancee or even wife...

...but come to me and say those "sweet2" words as if he is single...

...come on,man.appreciate what u have and jangan tamak,boleh?...

...i'll be ok if he wants to be friend with me...

...but please,read the definition of friend first...

...and again, please act as a friend...

...otherwise, go away, please...

...sy sgt xsuka bersubahat dlm menyakiti hati wanita lain...

** wahai lelaki, kamu tak kesian ke kt pasangan kamu yang setia tu??pelik aku!

~lalalalalalalala~

:: hectic! ::

2010-11-27T18:56:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since my last entry..

been busy with work..java training..etc..

feel like to write..but don't know what to write..ha3!

maybe next time..

papai~

~lalalalalalala~

:: yes,sy menangis hari ni ::

2010-11-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

congrats to u,cintapurple~!!u manage to cry ur heart loud today~!!

yes,i admit i'm not familiar with all the things that i need to deal with in my workplace..i have no basic at all..i'm stupid..lembap..lampi..ssh nk catch-up and etc..jdnye,sy sgt3 stresssssssss b'kerja+t'lalu pressure..training with a person yg sgt3 laju mngajar,and when i can't answer some questions,it such a shame when people say:

"dulu xblaja ke?"......."ni pun xtau?"......."bape kali nk ckp nih?".......

ye,sy sgt lembap nk catch-up sesuatu bnd yg da lame sy xblaja..and fyi,almost half of year i've been staying at home,jage my late father,teman my mom,driving,cooking,dan semua2 yg s'angkatan dgnnya..what do u expect me to know all those things in just 5hours???setengah tahun xpegang coding..and seriously,i don't even have time to study back all those things before i start working..why?because people never know betapa byknye t/jawab sy t'hadap keluarga..cakap mmg senang..

"sabar,xde bnd senang"...

mmg xde bnd senang kt dunia ni,tp ade cara yg baik kn utk bg org fhm sesuatu bnd?perlu ke nk underestimate org lain?perlu ke nk ckp kuat2 smpi 1ofis dgr?i know i'm newbie..but don't treat me like this..another thing is,i hate C.O.M.P.A.R.I.S.O.N~!!!!don't compare me with previous person,please?yes,i know she's better than me,she's a fast learner,she's good,she's this..she's that..but do u realize something?i'm totally NOT HER..can u see that?dan lg 1,i agree with daven..he said malaysian sgt kolot..when we say "tak tau@tak faham",they immediately say:

"tu pun xtau?"......."la,xkn xtau"......."xyah jd programmer la klu xtau".......

but when we say "i don't understand @ i don't know" to the non-malaysian,they will guide us and help us to make our understanding better..that's why foreign country sgt maju..tp negara kita nih xmaju2 sbb org2nya selalu menghina+memandang rendah sesama sendiri...mmg sy sgt sedih arini sbb sy xmampu nk kawal airmata sy..bkn sbb sy sedih kena mara..tp sbb kesal dibuat begitu oleh org melayu sendiri..sy tau ilmu sy cetek..sy xsebertuah org lain..mmg sy selalu diuji oleh Allah..tp arini sy sedih bkn sbb xdpt terima ujian Allah,tp sbb sedih m'dgr ucapan2 drpd manusia2 yg d'anggap mulia d mata sy..u never know how hard my life is,my dea..sy tau sy patut beruntung dgn segala ujian ini dan sy sedang mencuba utk "memberuntungkan" diri sy sendiri..u've never been through what i've gone through since i was child,so saying "sweet words" don't really make me feel better..thanx,anyway.. =) oh ya,terima kasih kpd mereka2 yg telah m'canang cerita kesedihan sy ke serata dunia sblm masanya..jasa anda dikenang..hak3..rasenye sy da puas menangis arini dan sy da pun melepaskan sedikit kemarahan di blog ini..if u don't feel comfortable to read this post,silalah beredar dgn segera..kerana post ini mengandungi unsur2 kesedihan+kemarahan semata..sekian~

* sy xpnh berangan pon nk keje gomen sokmo sbb sy xpnh b'hrp utk ke sana

** alasan gomen bknlah satu alsan yg tepat utk sy tidak fokus pd kerja sy

*** sy mmg lembab dan sy xpnh malu utk mengakui kelembaban sy

**** i appreciate ur help for letting me be in this company.thnx a lot,f.r.i.e.n.d

~lalalalalalalala~

:: mula rasa gentar ::

2010-10-28T18:04:00.000+08:00

insyaAllah,this becoming monday i will start working..but i'm starting to feel uneasy..sbbnye,slma 4bln sy menganggur d rumah ni..i'm d one that manage the things in this house..sy la g psr,sy la msak,sy la kemas umh,sy la hntr mama g mne2,sy la dok b'dua dgn mama kt umh,sume sy..tp nnt ble sy stat keje,mama tggl sorg je kt umh..spe nk tlg die?mama sy da semakin pelupa..itu penyakit yg plg sy takut skli..bru ckp 5saat,dia da lupa ape die ckp..bru 10saat kua duit dr wallet,die da xigt die ltk mne duit tu..haisyyyyy~!!japg silap2 klu mama drive klua,die boley lupa jln blik umh..hurmmm..how to solve this problem?is there anything that i can do?sy sgt G.U.S.A.R~!! (T_T)

sy syg mama sy..hugss~!!

* sy xprepare ape2 lg utk keje.stdy pn tade.bajet bagos,an??kih3
** 2morow i have an interview.pray for me please...semoga dpt keje gomen..Aaminnn.. ^_^

~lalalalalalalala~

:: detik2 pemergian ::

2010-10-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 21/10/2010

1.30pm:

trett2!!trett2!!(phone call from mama)...

mama : ra,ktne?

me : ira otw g hntr yan keje.npe ma?

mama : papa buang air.hbs 1tilam kena.mama nk cuci tp xlarat nk angkat papa.

me : owh,yeke.xpe2.mama tgu jap.japg ira sampai.

10minutes after that...

me : mama da cuci da ke?spe tlg angkat papa?(sambil tgk mama tgh cuci tilam+cadar).

mama : mama soh angah balik kejap td.ni dia da g keje balik.

then i entered the house...sy nampak papa mcm susah nk b'nafas.

me : ma,cuba tgk papa.npe dgn papa ni ma?

mama : ha?npe?yang..yang..npe ni yang?(sambil tepuk2 pipi+urut2 dada papa).

me : ma,cuba sapu air ni kat muka+dada papa.

lps mama sapu air pd muka+dada papa,papa sedar...

papa : nape dgn aku td yang?nape td?(dgn nada suara yg sgt xb'maya dan hampir xdgr)

mama : xtau yang.awk mcm ssh nk b'nafas td.awk ok x ni?mengucap2.Asyhadu allailaha illallah.

10.30pm:

eda : ra,akk nk blik umh jap ek.ko teman mama jge papa ek.ape2,ko kol akk tau.

me : ok,pape nnt ak kol.

mama : ra,mlm ni teman mama tdo kt dpn ra.papa da mcm t'cungap2 tu.mama risau la.

me : ok,jap.(sambil ke toilet ambil wudhuk+capai yasin kt ats katil).

then i started reading Yasin for my dad while my mom keep whispering shahadah to his ears...

11.30pm:

me : ma,mama ltk kain btik byk2 tu nnt papa pns plak.

mama : yeke?xla ra,bdn papa sejuk ni.cuba rase.

me : a'ah la.(sambil rase perot+dada papa).tp kaki papa pns.(pegang lutut papa).

mama : xpela.selimutkan je la.kt ruang tamu ni sejuk.(mama selimutkan papa dgn 1lg kain batik).

then i started reading the Yasin again for my dad while my mom keeps whispering shahadah to his ears......

11.40pm:

after finish reading the Yasin,i looked at my dad's face.mama keep whispering shahadah to him.tbe2 sy rase xsedap hati sbb mama selimutkan papa smpi ke dada. takut xdpt tgk dada papa b'ombak ke x.

mama : ra,tlg mama angkat kerusi ni jap.nk ltk sblh papa ni tkut die t'jatuh dr katil.

sy pn angkat kerusi yg dimaksudkan.then,sy t'gerak hati nk selak selimut papa.ble sy selak,sy tgk dada papa xb'gerak.then sy pegang perut,xb'ombak mcm td.dgr nafas dkt mulut,xde angin pun.then i asked my mom to check,and she's panic.mama kejutkn angah then angah check,mmg papa da xb'nafas.Inna lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiunn...he's gone.. (T_T)

Friday,22/10/2010

8.30am:

jenazah papa d bawa ke masjid upm untuk dimandikan dan dikafankan..ramai sangat org yg dtg pg tu since rata2 yg dtg sumenye kwn mama+arwah papa..since mlm papa pergi smpi pg tu,sy xmampu nk nangis.mngkn sbb stil t'kejut.papa pergi sgt2 perlahan mlm tu.mcm xnk kami tau.tp sy b'syukur sbb papa pergi dgn agak mudah.ombakan nafasnya xbegitu kuat.Alhamdulillah...

10.00am:

jenazah selamat dimandikan dan dikafankan.waktu imam ckp "dijemput anak2 dan isteri arwah utk masuk melihat jenazah buat kali terakhir"...mata sy da mula b'genang.sedih sbb skjp lg papa akn dikebumikan.sedih sbb lps ni papa da xjln2 keliling taman dgn auto wheelchair nye.sedih sbb sy plg xbyk b'ckp dgn papa saat2 akhir dia ada.sedih sbb xkn ade lg papa lps ni.wktu cium jenazah papa,rse muke papa sejuk sgt2.sejuk n lembut.xb'henti keluar airmata tgk jenazah papa.xtahan hiba...

10.30am

jenazah papa dikebumikan d tanah perkuburan islam,upm.cuaca sgt redup pg tu.xbrpe pns.Alhamdulillah,upacara pengebumian selamat dijalankan.moga sy kuat utk tidak menangis lg...

-Al-Fatihah-

~lalalalalalalala~

:: selamat malam cinta!! ::

2010-10-20T00:34:00.000+08:00

...selamat malam,cinta!!...

...moga kamu tidur nyenyak...

...ditemani bintang2...

~lalalalalalalala~

:: saya rindu ::

2010-10-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

:: sy sgt2 rndu mau main netball +_+ ::

:: almost 4months didn't play this game ::

:: cuma ptg2 je main saje2 dgn adik ::

:: hurmm...sgt best jika sy dpt b'main semula ::

:: cik ptd,kmu pun mst rndu,kn? +_+ ::

~lalalalalalalaalala~

:: a humble convo ^_* ::

2010-10-13T10:28:00.000+08:00

...di saat kwn2 mngadakan sesi fotografi beramai2...

...sy yg hanya b'temankan mama+adik+rumey...

...mengadakan sesi fotografi yg agak simple...

...but valuable to be remembered ^_* ...

...thanx to adik for accompany mama in the hall...

...and also rumey for being such a nice bodyguard.kih3...

...to all ict friends,sorry for not joining you...

...since i have to went back earlier as my dad needs my mom the most...

...fortunately,sy sempat b'gambar dgn kwn2 atas jasa baik kecik+taro wktu pulang robe ritu...

...to ina,sorry for having a very short moment with you that day.nnt kte jmp,k. ^_^ ...

...to awin+pana+ninie+juan+baiti+nana+yana (w/pn xsmpt jmp) thanx a lot for coming...

...rase sgt lega da ade cert d tgn..hu3.yeay~!! \(^_^)/ ...

*get ready for fotograpi*

*the greenish grass*

*sibuk dak kck 2org ni*

*three of us*

*mama + adik*

*pana + awin, thanx dea~!!*

*widot si gadis cuppies*

*ninie + nana yg nenot*

*ayu an die pki tudung?hak3*

*thanx en juan (^_*)*

*hari itu sangat panas,ok..sy b'peluh mcm b'sukan.hu3

**thanx a lot pd semua!mmuahx~!! =P

***pic formal sy ats stage sgt xcantek!menci!! +_+

~lalalalalalalala~

:: d.o.n.e~!! ::

2010-10-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah..

finally, done with blog editing..

mine and adik..

temanya..♥+red+pink..

tonight, suppose to go to iium for masum dinner..

unfortunately, i can't make it..

cause some people come to my house utk merawat papa sy..

sorry ye, awin+other netballers..

i-Allah, weekend ni kite jumpa, ye.. (",)

~lalalalalalala~

:: already replaced ::

2010-09-28T17:12:00.001+08:00

:: it seems like you already got someone to replace me ::

:: though it is hurt, i'm happy for you (^____^) ::

:: i think there is no need for me to continue my efforts anymore ::

:: i will always pray for your happiness ::

:: and i think i should c.l.o.s.e my heart right now ::

~lalalalalalala~

:: the undisclosed words ::

2010-09-17T10:41:00.000+08:00

...mengapakah sukar menyusun bicara...

...meluahkan rasa menuturkan sayang...

...kasih yang terlimpah hanya sekadar tingkah...

...cumalah ungkapan bisu kalimah rahsia...

...apakah yang hilang andai dilisankan...

...bait penghargaan penuh kejujuran...

...tak mungkin terlihat cinta yang merona...

...jika hanya renungan mata yang bersuara...

...bukan atur kata...

...tiada lagi ertinya pengucapan...

...andai akhir nafas dihujung helaan...

...sebelum mata rapat terpejam...

...usah biar kehilangan...

...menggantikan lafaz yang tersimpan...

~lalalalalalala~

:: thank G.o.d ::

2010-09-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah,finally i get a job.hu3..first time interview tanpa ade perasaan and immediately i've got an email regarding the job offer from the manager together with contract of employment as jnr s/w developer..hu3..z and cahaya have got the same offer as mine.insyaAllah,we will start working on 1st november 2010 since z need 1month notice to resign from his company..so,sementara nk start keje tu,i'm planning to do p/time job selain home tutor.(yeke nk keje p/time?ke nk dok umh mkn+tido je??hu3 =P )

thanx a lot to angafey coz recommended us to his manager.rase t'hutang budi sgt2.insyaAllah,ade rezeki nnt kami belanja kamu mkn ye,kecik..hu3 =)

~lalalalalalala~

:: "tell me more about netball....." ::

2010-09-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

this morning i've attended an interview at tpm..the same company as angafey work with right now..and thanx to her for recommended me and my 2 other friends to that job.frankly, i don't really prepared for this interview.i just take a look at the company's website and i did read about sql a lil' bit..

i reached at the tpm at 12.00noon.but it's difficult for me to find the parking but thank God, angafey did guide me to park at the nearest place.when i reached at the office, angafey told me that my friends, (cahaya+z) already finished the interview.and guess what..they did a test~!!aiyarrkk..punyela t'kejut teman,ade test ghopenye..haisyy~!! +_+

hurm,b'bekalkn ilmu d dada yg xsbrpa,i just entered the interview room and there were two interviewers in that room.1st part,the manager briefly talk about the company and the 2nd part,it's my turn to introduce and brief a lil' bit about myself.through the interview,i felt quite comfortable with 'em and there's an interesting part when the interviewer asked about my hobbies and i said i love netball.then immediately,the manager said,"tell me more about netball..the rules..the team..etc.."hu3 seriously,i'm shocked with that question.never thought of that question at all.hik3..ape lg,seronok ler teman dok b'ceghite..hu3.

then,when i we finished the interview part,then it comes to the test session.honestly, i did tell the manager that i'm not really familiar with the sql thingy,but then he said the test is just a basic one and they just want to know how far we know about sql.and here i am,doing the test dgn slumber nye..hu3

since i don't really prepare for the test,i just answer the question based on what i have in my mind.pakai cincai sajeee sy jwb,ok..hu3.then,when i finished the test,he marked the paper straight away..hahah~!!malu sy..jwb ntah hape2..but luckily,i did very well in d test~!! ^_^ bangga skjp..kui3 =P then,he asked about my p/time job (home tutor) and also about the netball..then,abis interview.yeay~!! =P i don't really hope to get this job since i think that i'm not qualified enough to be apart of 'em.tp xpe,just tawakal 'alallah.d mna ade rezeki,d situ ade kilije..hek3 =)

p/s: the manager keep asking about netball+home tutor that i did..mst sbnrnye die nk hntr ank die blaja dgn sy,an?an?an?kih3.. =P

~lalalalalalalala~

:: b.a.l.i.k k.a.m.p.u.n.g ::

2010-08-29T07:39:00.000+08:00

rase macam da 4tahun xbalik kampung perak nih..hu3

semalam,sampai kt umah atok kol 2.30pm..

yg bestnye, lauk b'buka semalam TERSANGATLAH heavennye..

syukur Alhamduliilah.. =)

semalam, my mom masak nasi beriani + ayam masak merah..

my eldest sister masak sayur dalca + daging..

my youngest sister masak sayur kailan ikan masin t'baik dr ladang..hik3

mak ude plak masak sambal "udang galah" + sambal ikan bilis petai..

though i don't eat petai at all, i did eat sambal ikan bilis sebab feveret sy.. =P

kesimpulannya, lauk b'buka semalam semuanya merah2 belaka..hek3

*can't forget the biggest prawn i had..mkn sekor tuh pon xlarat..besau sgt..keh3

**going back to kL this noon since my sis+my bro-in-law keje esok..hu3

***sy xmasak ape2..sy + rozy cume pembantu saje d dapur..kui3

~lalalalalalalala~

:: giler ah~!! ::

2010-08-28T07:45:00.000+08:00

aritu 1st time hantar my sister pegi tempat keje die kt upnm..

t'sangat la dlm upnm nih ghopenye..

idok le teman penah pegi sblm nih..

dgn kawalan yg agak ketat dr abang2 askar kt situ..

teman ghase mcm banduan le pulok msuk upnm nih..kih3

nk d jadikn ceghitenye..waktu hntr adik teman tuh..

nk dkt kol 6.30pm da time tu..

jdnye, ghamei le manusia2 yg baru balik dr bazar ramadhan nih ha..

yg buat teman ghase agak teghuja..

bile si abg2 upnm nih, blik dr bazar pn kena KAWAD, hokkeyy..

haisyyy~!!xpnh dibuat oghang, dgn tgn penuh plastik mknn+minuman, dok KAWAD tengah2 jln tuh..kelako le pulok ghasenye..hik3

tp ape pun, gua mmg "tabik spring" la dgn lu sume,brader..toink~!!toink~!! =P

**ghase cm sejuk jek masuk upnm tu..sbbnye, b'bukit bukau jlnnye..hu3

~lalalalalalalalala~

:: hahah~!! ::

2010-08-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

when people starting to search+buy baju raya, kasut raya, etc..

i'm still here in my room, searching for a job..

hahah~!!so lame..

~lalalalalala~

:: d.i.f.f.i.c.u.l.t.i.e.s ::

2010-08-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

i never had this kind of "difficulties"..for almost two months i've been searching for a job, but i never had one..susah nk g sekolah waktu kecik2 dulu pun x mcm ni.haisyyyy~!! +_+ sometimes i'm tired of doing the same things everyday..checking my email..browsing the web to search for a job..filling up some forms to apply the jobs..attending several interviews..sitting for IQ tests..IT tests..etc..but at the end, i didn't get any update or feedback from the companies..bebal sgt ke sy time g interview tu?? ='(

last week, i've gone through almost 8 final interviews..biasala, klu IT nye field nih, tade mknenye nk interview sekali je..b'kali2 interview nye..test la..1st interview la..2nd interview la..3rd interview pon ade..boley pecah kepala dok g interview saje..tapi resultnye, another two weeks..lame tuh nk tgu.. (*_+)~

there are several companies i've gone through..1st company, ma-see-ta at semenyih..bpak jauh..2nd company eye-bee-aim at bndr utama..3rd, see-ne-ma online at kelana jaya..4th, hesh-pee at cyberjaya..5th, siber-sekuriti at sg besi..6th, eye-bee-aim back..7th, syell..the last one, see-eye-aim-bee (they called me but i never applied to them)..fuhhh~~!!mcm mau gilak otak attend interview byk2..and i've got another 1 interview at upm (em-tee-dee-see)..maybe nextweek..haiyarkkk~!!hope that will be the last interview for me..never thought to have anymore interviews..+_+

i always pray to God that i will get government position..and i already applied 2positions last two days..but i believe those positions are available after idul-fitri..wish me luck,guys~!! =')

~lalalalalalala~

..... +_+ .....

2010-08-18T17:45:00.000+08:00

...i don't know what makes you said like that...
...i never had an intention to forget you...
...never think about it at all...
...how can i forget the one that always be by my side...
...no matter how hard my life is...
...i felt so sad when you say those things...
...i'm so sory if i've done something that makes you feel like that...
...but just bear in your mind, i will never forget you 'till the end of my life...
...i-Allah...

~lalalalalalalala~

:: should i? ::

2010-08-06T08:25:00.000+08:00

i feel like giving up everything

tired of doing the same thing everyday

emailing, emailing, emailing...

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhh~!!

should i stop 'em right now?

should i???

~lalalalalala~

:: yup,,this is who i am ::

2010-07-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

:: i'm jobless ::
:: i'm working so hard to find a job ::
:: i'm not like my other friends..murah rezeki sentiasa ::
:: since i was child, i need to struggle even though for RM1 ::
:: i have a dream (to get proper job, to drive honda city, to give my mom+sisters some money) ::
:: and i want to achieve my dream with my own hands ::
:: if that sounds stupid, let me be in this stupidity ::
:: i just need someone that could support me even though for a silly dream like this ::
:: and i think i already found one =) ::

~lalalalalalala~

:: i don't know ::

2010-07-12T11:20:00.000+08:00

..i don't know what goes wrong..

..but i hope it will be ok soon..

..perhaps, it will..

..(+_+)..

~lalalalalalalala~

"~ku ada k.a.m.u~"

2010-07-08T11:42:00.000+08:00

Di kala ku kehilangan
Di dalam kegelapan
Kau suluhkan sinar petunjuk
Di kala ku kesedihan
Kau ukirkan senyuman
Dengan penuh sabar memujuk

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh
Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku
Andai hari esok dunia gelora
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu

Di kala aku tak pasti
Kau tampil dengan berani
Membimbing agar lebih yakin
Dan bila hidup penuh soalan
Kau berikan jawapan
Melengkap semua kekurangan

Engkau menyambut tiap kali aku terjatuh
Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku
Andai hari esok dunia gelora
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu

Tidak mungkin diri ini mampu hidup tanpa doronganmu
Andai hari esok langit akan runtuh
Tabahlah menjunjung bersamaku
Andai hari esok dunia gelora
Takkan ku gemuruh selagi ku ada kamu

~lalalalalalalala~

:: new life begins ::

2010-06-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

hurmm..already finish my masum games..

alhamdulillah, berjaya gak kekalkan team mustang in division 1..hu3

starting from tomorrow, i will have a new life..

in which no more classes..works..studies..exams..etc.

but i need to find job asap to cover up my income..adoiyaiii~!! +_+

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segalanya bagi ku..

Aamin..

~lalalalalalala~

:: aku s.a.k.i.t ::

2010-05-19T12:11:00.000+08:00

..come on, ira..get up..come on..

..why u scared..

..u'll never change what's been and gone..

..and stop crying ur heart out..

~lalalalalalala~

Yesss~!!i'm done~!! (^_*)

2010-05-14T13:04:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah..

finally I'm done with my IA presentation..

rasa mau pelok orang~!!hugsssss~!!hu3..

so,tonight boleh all out with netball training.. =)

mau lepas segala kelegaan ini malam..kui3

2weeks more left for me to finish up the final report..

and will be going to UM for Netball MASUM 2010..

I'm going to graduate soon~!! \(^_^)/

thank you so much to all people around..

especially m0mma..eda..and..

very BIG thanks to c.h.e.n.t.a.a.d.i.k~

for being beside me no matter what I've gone through.. =)

dan k.a.m.u...yg mengajar sy erti kehidupan.. =)

~lalalalalala~

kamu tak kenal saya~

2010-05-10T10:37:00.000+08:00

...kamu xtau ape yg saya lalui selama ni..

..dan saya maafkan kamu atas ketidaktahuan itu..

..saya bukan mcm ape yg kamu fikirkan..

..nampaknya kamu belum kenal saya sepenuhnya..

~lalalalalalalala~

:: schedule ::

2010-05-07T15:21:00.001+08:00

..i might be busy..

..but still i need u always..

..so contact me often..

..otherwise, i'll kill you~!!

hahahahahahhahaha

~lalalalalalalala~

sireh itu pahit+pedasssss~

2010-05-05T16:51:00.001+08:00

♫ ..berkorban apa saja..harta atau pun nyawa..itulah kasih mesra..sejati dan mulia.. ♫

keh3.. (^^,)

last week we went to kg seri aman..
utk mengubat c.h.e.n.t.a a.d.i.k yg d serang gatal2 seluruh bdn nye..
i feel sorry for u my dea.. (+_+)
utk hilangkan gatal2 tu, kami terpaksa mengunyah sireh+pinang dan semburkan pd tempat yg gatal2 tu..
and the one who should chew that sireh is M.E (^_*)~
yup,sireh+pinang mmg sgt pahit+pedassss..1st time sy mengunyahnye, terase mau muntah namun ku tahan jua..hu3
second time, i feel better sbb da kali kedua mengunyah..hu3
and the third time will be tonight and i really hope that this last sireh will work effectively..
yg best nye,sireh+pinang yg t'akhir ni kecik.yeay~!!!!hu3..

Ya Allah,sembuhkanlah penyakit ini..Aamin..

~lalalalalalala~

workload = max~!!

2010-04-28T12:44:00.001+08:00

after 3days MC, inilah hasilnye..

keje yg melambak2..+..menimbun2..haisyyy~!! (+_+)~

thought that someone could take over it while i'm off..

tp rupanya tidak..oh,no~!! (T_T)

sgt penat dduk d bwh air-cond sampai m'geletar bdn..+..seram sejuk..+..batok2~!!

sy mau PULANG segeraaaaaa~!! \(^o^)/

p/s: c.h.e.n.t.a.a.d.i.k ku syg..take care ye study d mcD tu..tammo on9 sajeeee.kih3 =P

~lalalalalala~

:: can't take it anymore (T_T)~ ::

2010-04-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

seriously..i can't take it anymore..

i'm coughing almost everytime..

and vomiting almost every minute..

i'm sweating a lot whenever i'm coughing..

sometimes i did give up on trying..

i did see the doctor for 3times and all said the same thing..

"tekak xmerah..temprature xtinggi..heart bit ok,xde masalah.."

what happened to me actually??

i even met an ustaz to help me..

but my coughing become worse..

i can't eat fried food..spicy..ice..oily..

though i drink a glass of plain water..i will puke it 10-15min later..

seriously..i'm tired of these..

tekak saya sangat SAKIT..

whatever exist in my throat,please..go away~!! (T_T)~

~lalalalalalala~

haisyyyy~!!

2010-04-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

0 .. 1 .. 2 .. 3 .. 4 .. 5 .. 6 .. 7 .. 8 .. 9 .. 10 .. 11 .. 12 .. 13 .. 14 .. 15 .. 16 .. 17 .. 18 .. 19 .. 20 .. 21 .. 22 .. 23 .. 24 .. 25 .. 26 .. 27 .. 28 .. bla .. bla .. bla ..

..i'm starting to HATE numbers..

~lalalalalalalala~

day 40 - dear God~

2010-04-09T11:29:00.002+08:00

dear God,

today they are going to have another 2games..

with melaka in d morning..

and perak in d evening..

with Your Mercy,please let them win..

for both games..

as You gave d victories to them yesterday..

You are d Most Gracious,d Most Merciful..Ya Rabbi..

Aamin,Aamin,Ya Rabbal 'Alaminn..

-Your servant-

~lalalalalalala~

alhamdulillah,thank God~

2010-04-08T16:59:00.000+08:00

thank God..

they won d 1st game..

hope they could make it for d 2nd game..

fight terengganu..quiet tough katenye..

moge2 menang jugee..

gudluck dear~!!

~lalalalalala~

decision changed~

2010-04-08T14:29:00.000+08:00

dengan ini..

sy mengumumkan..

sy xjadi g exam ptd..

antara sbb nye adalah seperti berikut:

:: sy xde salinan scroll sbb xconvo lg..kui3

:: sy xsempat nk cop partial transcript sy..haisyyy

:: sy xtau kt mne sy ltk sijil spm sy..adoiyaiii

:: sy malas nk study psl malaysia..kih3

:: sy rase sy bkn d lahirkan utk jd ptd..keh3

:: sy mau further master (pray for me)..hu3

:: sy mmg akn d tendang keluar dr exam hall sbb xcukup doc..har3

~lalalalalalala~

already made decision~

2010-04-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

ok,finally..

i've decided to go to d exam..

ade rezeki,lulus la..

xde rezeki,i'll apply other jobs..hu3

sory awin..can't follow u..he3

~lalalalalalala~

sy sangat B.U.N.T.U~

2010-04-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

uwaaaa~!!

tolong sy~!!

this weekend i've got 3events in a row..

1) exam ptd on saturday (9am-5pm)..

2) netball tournament on sunday at Port Klang..

3) anugerah MASUM on saturday+sunday at perlis..

mane 1 sy nk g nih??!!

c.h.e.n.t.a a.d.i.k~!!help me to make decision,pleaseeeeee~~

~lalalalalalalala~

day 39 - God..please~

2010-04-08T10:47:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

please let them win..

give them enough strength..

please help them..

-Rara-

~lalalalalalala~

day 38 - i feel empty~

2010-04-07T11:50:00.000+08:00

haisyyyy~!!

k.o.s.o.n.g~

b.l.a.n.k~

s.u.n.y.i~

s.e.p.i~

E.M.P.T.Y~

c.h.e.n.t.a a.d.i.k, sila pulang segera~~

(+_+)~

~lalalalalala~

day 37 - take care my bestest a.d.i.k~

2010-04-06T10:34:00.000+08:00

4hours and 30min left for u..

before u go to Melaka..

haisyyyyy~!!i'm going to miss u lorhhh~!!

kegilaanmu ku rindu~ (+_+)

take care ye,adik..jgn lupa mkn ubat..

there's no better sister than u..

~lalalalalalala~

♪...i'll be missing u...♪ (i'll be waiting~)

2010-04-05T14:41:00.001+08:00

i'll b waiting for u to come back..

but,u have to promise me to do d followings,k..

:: take ur meal on time ::

:: do eat ur medicine ::

:: don't "sleep-talk" at night ::

:: neva eat seafood ::

:: wash ur foot b4 u sleep ::

:: always charge ur hp ::

:: call me b4 u sleep ::

:: play smart ::

:: don't go anywhere without ur friends beside ::

:: take a good care of urself ::

:: try to be CHAMPION~!! ::

:: treat me a bunch right after u win~!!hek3 ::

i will always pray for ur success k..

luv u, c.h.e.n.t.a.a.d.i.k..mmuahx2~!!

~lalalalalalalala~

day 36 - sy adalah buruh kasar~

2010-04-05T13:40:00.000+08:00

hak3..last weekends sy telah mengemas umh bru kami..

since we only have weekends to settle down all things..

b'mula dgn m'cuci tingkap..+..kemas bilik..+..ketuk sane ketuk sini..+..cuci & jemur baju,cadar,etc..+..cat meja..+..cat dinding..

agak penat jgk la..since asst sy a.k.a PA sy (c.h.e.n.t.a.a.d.i.k) bz training d kg pandan..

jdnye,sy tiada p'bantu...hu3

but i really enjoy my weekends..

thanx~!! (^_+)~

inilah hasil kerja tgn sy..kui3 (^_*)~

~lalalalalalalala~

sy k.e.b.o.s.a.n.a.n~

2010-04-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

sy sgt bosan..

kwn2 intern sy yg len da amek cuti half day..

skg sy sorg2 je kt opis..

sy sgt2 mati kutu..

uwaaaaa~!!

i'm bored to d max~!! (+_+)~

~lalalalalalala~

day 32 - we will miss u~

2010-04-02T10:55:00.000+08:00

::2nd April 2010, 12.30am::

dunno why..

i can't hold d tears ths morning..

when listening to d radio..

regarding d death of our no.1 comedian - Din Beramboi..

it was my 1st time having this terribly sad feeling..

perhaps it is because i luv his comedy too much..

sampai tgk sume lawak2 arwah ulang2 kali pn xjemu2..

mngkn lps ni,sy akn nangis menonton lwk2 arwah..

may God bless u, pak Din..

we will always pray for u..

-Al Fatihah-

~lalalalalalala~