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last saturday i dreamt of papa.i cried on his shoulder and he just smile on me.sgt rindu.sgt sedih.sampai waktu terjaga dari tidur pun,airmata laju je turun mencurah2.yup,i miss him so much :'( i asked him,why he left me alone?dan dia hanya tersenyum manis di sana.seriously,i had very short time with him when he still alive.i left home when i was 13.i'm d only one dok kat asrama.after spm,i further my study kt matrik uia,pj.still,dok asrama and jarang2 balik uma.again,i'm d only one yg masuk matrik.then,i sambung degree kt uia gombak.again,asrama for 4years kt sana and i jgk satu2nye yg smpi degree.yup,degree kt uia 4thn,sgt lama sbb kami byk subjek language yg kena master :D so,during my 24years time of living in this world,i bleh kira dgn jari bpe byk masa yg i ada dgn papa dulu.papa i x sehat.he has diabetes since i was 9.so papa byk kali kua masuk hospital sbb penyakitnye tu.and something to be proud of,i pena jaga papa i dkt mahkota medical centre,melaka when i was 10.3bln i jge papa kt sana sorg2.my mom dtg weekend je bwk kkk and adk2 i lawat ktorg kt situ.itu jela masa yg i rasa i sgt rapat dgn papa i.because of that diabetes,my dad potong kaki smpi lutut belah kanan when i was form5.waktu i tgh exam spm.then kaki belah kiri waktu i dkt matrik uia.then pergelangan tangan belah kanan waktu i dkt uia gombak.wlpun cacat,papa i independent.sume bnd dia buat sendiri.mnd,mkn,solat,amek wudhu',sume sendiri.papa siap ajar bdk2 ngaji kt uma lg.i bangga dgn papa i.dia kuat,sangat kuat.i sentiasa berharap i bleh jd kuat mcm dia. :') ble i da masuk study,i bz dgn study,i bz dgn netball,i bz dgn i punye home tuition,masa i dgn papa sgt2 limited.i salu jgk singgah uma,tp masa tu x panjang.seriously,i rindu papa tny i soalan yg sama ulang2 kali,i rindu papa baca kt i doa yg sama dia soh i amalkan ulang2 kali,i rndu papa cter bnd yg sama kt i ulang2 kali.i sbnrnye ank yg plg x rapat dgn papa i,tp i dpt rasa i'm d one that he cares d most.dia salu kol i waktu i kt univ dulu.dia salu tny keadaan i klu i demam kt sane.dia salu soh i bce doa yg sama tiap kali i x sehat or stress kt sane.yg i agak sdey,ble i da abes study,papa i da stat ingat2 lupa.papa i da stat x larat nk bangun.papa i da stat lemah.papa i x dpt dtg pn waktu convo i.and i believe he doesn't even know yg i da grad :') yg lg sdey,i xsempat pun bg papa i rasa 1st gaji i :') he left me before i got the job.kdg2 ble i fikir balik,character i banyak yg sama dgn papa i.we love sports,kami kuat keje,kami suke smpn brg2 lama,kami suke nyanyi,kami pandai baca quran dgn tajwid yg betul,kami suke berangan,banyak bnd yg i warisi dari papa i.tp i harap i x warisi penyakit tu.insyaAllah,i cuba jaga. :) hurmm..i xtau mcm mane nk gambarkan rindu i pada dia.i simpan impian,1hari nanti i nak nyanyikan 1 lagu utk dia.khas utk dia sorg saje.i really hope i could get the chance... :') ❤

papa bersama sahabatnya :')

❤ cintapurple ❤